time is of essence like your kiss.

sulliwulli @ 2009-11-06T19:37:00

2009-11-07T00:37:30Z

After awhile you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn that love doesn’t mean possession
and company doesn’t mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
and presents aren’t promises and you begin to accept
your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.
And you learn to build your roads today
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.
After awhile you learn that even sunshine
burns if you get too much so you plant your
own garden and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn…

Veronica A. Shoffstall

sulliwulli @ 2009-08-17T23:21:00

2009-08-18T03:21:14Z

I want you, SO BAD.

sulliwulli @ 2009-07-27T13:45:00

2009-07-27T17:46:20Z

i am such a fat ass holy shit. I have never looked even near this bad in my entire life.
School starts september 7th. I'm going to the gym every single day if not twice a day until school starts

sulliwulli @ 2009-07-20T16:04:00

2009-07-20T20:04:58Z

i haven't spoken to him in over a week, it's making me very anxious.

i miss him. I like being home, but I miss school.

sulliwulli @ 2009-07-13T06:19:00

2009-07-13T10:20:01Z

last few days in italy.

i'm excited to be home!

sulliwulli @ 2009-07-04T18:25:00

2009-07-04T22:26:18Z

I thought that running away to italy would make all of my problems go away.
I have to stop running,
I feel like running away from my problems is all that i've ever done.
I really don't know how to deal with any of this anymore,
All I know is I'm really excited to have a few days with Melinda at portsmouth island.
Honestly, I just need to be able to get away with my best friend!
less than two weeks and i'll be out of ITALIA.
no more ciao, no more kissing every fucking person you know on the cheek, no more FUCKING SALAMI,
honestly, i'm sick of salami

sulliwulli @ 2009-07-03T17:27:00

2009-07-03T21:27:32Z

i have had way enough of italy.

send me home tomorrow, i want burgers and fries.

sulliwulli @ 2009-06-28T17:21:00

2009-06-28T21:21:32Z

no matter where you go, you can travel half way around the planet, a different continent, and the pain never goes away... the pain of knowing you're always second best, if that, never really what someone wants.

sulliwulli @ 2009-06-04T17:11:00

2009-06-04T21:12:11Z

I'm in Rome.
I better meet a fucking guy here because it is the most ROMANTIC DAMN PLACE IVE EVER BEEN. and almost depressing when you're by yourself.

sulliwulli @ 2009-05-27T18:10:00

2009-05-27T22:11:34Z

I honestly wish I could just STOP thinking about you all the time, put my feelings for you on hold for like... say three months until we're back at school. But I can't do that, and I can't stop thinking about you, it took me basically an hour to fall asleep last night cause I couldn't get you off my mind. what the hell? i hate this.

sulliwulli @ 2009-05-25T22:56:00

2009-05-26T02:57:14Z

I wanna be with you, you wanna be with me.
why can't it just be as simple as that?

sulliwulli @ 2009-05-21T22:08:00

2009-05-22T02:08:42Z

I'm home and honestly i wish i was still at school

sulliwulli @ 2009-05-14T00:42:00

2009-05-14T04:44:43Z

I can't wait to be in italy in only two weeks.

But I would give anything to have you there with me.
I know it's so hard for you, but I really hope we can be together. We're so perfect for each other.

sulliwulli @ 2009-05-12T20:56:00

2009-05-13T00:57:36Z

I am fatter than I have ever been in my entire life.
Honestly I can't even believe I let myself get to this point

this will not go any further.

sulliwulli @ 2009-05-10T14:17:00

2009-05-10T18:18:44Z

thank the lord that in a week and a half this HELLACIOUS school year will finally be over.

I really hope next year goes a little better.

sulliwulli @ 2009-05-03T17:08:00

2009-05-03T21:10:42Z

I can't help myself,
I have no self control when it comes to kissing you.

How is it that in a situation that is so incredibly wrong, it can be so amazingly right?

sulliwulli @ 2009-04-27T23:25:00

2009-04-28T03:27:32Z

oh my god i am SO SICK of falling for guys who are epically hung up on someone else!

honestly AHH.

sulliwulli @ 2009-04-16T21:05:00

2009-04-17T01:07:14Z

fucking slut wannabees who act like theyre fifteen when theyre fucking twenty running around the house squealing like fuckin pigs, stealing peoples shit and generally just acting like FUCKING IDIOTS.

this school year could not end SOON ENOUGH.
I cannot wait to be in a different apartment with fuckin decent human beings next year who actually know how to ACT THEIR FUCKING AGE.

sulliwulli @ 2009-04-06T22:41:00

2009-04-07T02:41:50Z

I feel like the most undesirable, unlovable, unwanted person on the entire planet.

sulliwulli @ 2009-04-02T00:04:00

2009-04-02T04:04:21Z

Just cause you feel it, doesn't mean it's there.

photo nerd status

2009-03-20T21:10:13Z

i just want to make pictures all day everyday.

god I FUCKING LOVE photography.

sulliwulli @ 2009-03-17T22:56:00

2009-03-18T02:56:50Z

now i just don't want to even be around you at all because it just hurts way too much to not be with you.

sulliwulli @ 2009-03-16T18:30:00

2009-03-16T22:33:16Z

there is no other way to describe it besides THIS JUST FUCKIN SUCKS.

saturday night you wouldn't stop hugging me telling me how imporant i am to you and the past two days when i've seen you its like you don't want to even be anywhere near me.
what the fuck?

I hate this.

sulliwulli @ 2009-03-14T11:11:00

2009-03-14T15:12:01Z

I'm stupid,
and naive
and right now I just deserve a big fat I told you so

sulliwulli @ 2009-03-07T18:24:00

2009-03-07T23:25:31Z

I'm so shaky and nervous about going back to school. I hate having absolutely no clue what is going on between us.